What a Rough Week!

     So, I don't know about you.... but I have had a rough week. Thoughts of the past plagued me, mostly at night.  I started to get upset and agitated and worry. All of which I knew I shouldn't do.  There is no point in wishing for the past.  Your past is the past for a reason, so why wish for anything other than what your life is now?

     I have been craving company while I've been feeling like this - this week, I have felt like I live on an island alone.  And it has taken a toll emotionally.  I feel like I'm losing some of my joy.  

     But I haven't been alone.  My friends are keeping an eye on me.  I text them when I really feel like I need to come back to reality, and they always say what I need to hear.  It's not necessarily what I wanted to hear, but it's always the message I need.

     Academically, I am not doing so well right now.  This week, I got my midterm grade back, and essentially found out that I am failing the class.  I had so much reading, I was feeling overwhelmed.  And because I attend a school for the brightest of the bright, I was consequently feeling like one of the most dull people ever.  Everyone else had valid and brilliant ideas to contribute in class, and I was sitting there wondering how much longer til we got out! So academically, I have been feeling pretty low.

     And then there was emotionally.  I was staying up way to late at night, trying to finish all my homework on time.  So naturally, I was up until the wee hours of the morning, and getting distracted.  Naturally, my mind turned back to the darkest place I have been, and I all the sudden started to miss what I thought I had then.  What I wished I had, but that I had fabricated in my own mind.  It was a false reality, but I started to miss it.

     And then, there was physically.  I have had a sinus infection for nearly a month now.  And on Wednesday, I woke up to the most painful sore throat I have ever had.  It hurt so badly I couldn't even swallow properly.  So naturally, I took another trip to Student Health (my third trip since school started).  And what did they tell me? My sinus infection was back, and draining into my throat.  Which apparently is a good thing?  They also told me they couldn't give me anymore antibiotics because I had already taken such an aggressive one only two weeks before.  So basically, they told me to take Nyquil and ride it out.  And then the cough started.  And I was coughing all the time.  And if you haven't coughed in a while, I will remind you.  Your throat hurts, you're coughing constantly, and exhausted.  It isn't fun.  

     So that's how my week has been.  Rough, huh?  Could be rougher, I know.  But this week stretched me to my max.  I felt like I was at my breaking point, and this was only a few minimum stressors.  

     But I didn't break.  I had my faithful friends there to catch me when I was falling.  I have gotten so much helpful advice this week.  And I am So thankful for each one of them.  They all reminded me of the joy that I should have.  Each of them reminded me to press closer to Our Lord through all my troubles.  And I did. 

     And now, I feel like I am ready for the week ahead of me.  I feel happy, and encouraged, if exhausted.  Academically, I feel like I am ready to tackle the week.  Emotionally, I am still struggling, but I WILL get there.  And physically, I still feel weak, but I am gradually starting to feel better.  

     I need these constant reminders to press into Him.  God has placed these wonderful friends in my life to remind of this constantly.  And it works! When I press into Him, I feel better than I have felt in the last week!